From Doubt to Growth: My First Observation Reality Check

I started my first year on a high note, feeling confident in my ability to navigate a classroom. Sure, I spent hours writing out every word of my lesson plans—just as I had been trained to do in my methods classes—but I was eager and ready.

Then came my first observation.

My supervisor, the head of the Language Department, sat in the back of my classroom, clipboard in hand. I tried to focus on teaching, but I could feel her presence, noting every move I made. When the lesson ended, I braced myself for feedback.

"Your teaching time is limited because you waste time handing out papers, explaining directions, and getting materials ready. You don’t give enough wait time. You’re working harder than the students. You need more activities that include both individual and whole-class review. When you show a video or play an audio, you need a pre-listening or pre-viewing activity. And more differentiation of content and process…."

The list went on and on. I felt defeated. I remember calling my mom, crying on the phone, asking if I had chosen the wrong career. Maybe I should go back to school, get a master’s degree in something else. My head was spinning.

But deep down, I knew the truth: I loved teaching. I loved watching students problem-solve, think deeper, and discover their strengths while working on areas of growth. I wasn’t ready to walk away.

So, instead of giving up, I dug in. I asked for help, met with my department chair, and sought advice from experienced teachers. I listened, learned, and adjusted my approach. When my supervisor returned for another observation, the feedback was different. This time, she was impressed.

Looking back, that moment wasn’t a failure—it was a turning point.

To new teachers reading this: observations can feel like judgment, but they are opportunities. Growth in this profession doesn’t come from getting everything right the first time; it comes from reflection, adaptation, and persistence. Every great teacher has faced a moment of doubt, but what defines us is how we move forward. Keep going. Keep learning. The impact you’re making is worth it.